How long to linger on...........

         

          Did I know? I wonder! Do I know? I mull over
         Why is this attachment? Can’t I just be ignorant?
Time to move on, decisions to be made on, still I stumble upon!!

          I think ..there is a chance, an opportune entrance
               for those who forfeit the comfort zone
              I fear.. there is a dearth, it's not worth
         but then, life will be steered to stagnant state

           If you want to grow,risk the change
        Don't let the fear of defeat to defeat you!
     Don't let the negativity to negate your positivity

      so far so good, do better and give your best
 stick to when you have to! come off when it calls for!
how long to dawdle to dare the destiny of conclusion!

           Look back to cherish the memories
  let warmth of relationships melt your heart,not the mind
    twilight has to go on...for the rise of New-moon!

Nah.. not now!!....

Current questions and thoughts which are strolling in the lane called mind are.............

Why shouldn't I start writing about shopping right now, at 12:30am!!? In the movie confessions of a shopaholic, the heroine Rebecca says ' The world gets better when I shop'. Today, after continuously shopping for past 2 weekends, I felt that, 'I get exhausted when I shop'. Thank God, I am not a shopaholic!

Where is the root of theism? Different part of the world witnesses different culture, still in every part of the world people believe in the existence of God. There is one thing common albeit there is difference in everything. This common thing is, the faith in existence of God. Isn't it wonderful? I am not an atheist. Still sometimes, I cannot stop wondering about the fact - how can every civilisation trust the supernatural power!

Uh-Uh..How did I end up doing this? I was supposed to go to bed! Okay..am going to shut down my laptop straightaway. Hey..wait..first publish this gibber, atleast for the sake of respecting your time!!! No editing and all,  just publish this post... Ok Ok.. am done... Good night! :)

Wonderful Dad :)

A little girl, about 11-12 years old is standing near the volleyball court. She is disquiet, lot of hopes in her eyes, eagerly waiting for the winning moment, she is cheering up her favourite team.

Her dad who is the captain of the team doesn't want to disappoint his daughter. He has promised his daughter the trophy though he is aware that opposite team is really strong and winning is not an easy task. His legs are letting him down; he is not able to play because of the leg pain, the only motivation is his daughter's wish! She has told him probably 100 times, papa you should win today. You have to take revenge for last year's defeat. I can’t see you loosing this time. Please Papa..do something...Her words ringing in his ears, he ignores the pain and jumps for the winning strike! That’s it! Team has won, his daughter is jumping with ecstasy as if she has conquered the world!...When his foot touches the ground he realises that he has badly hurt his leg. But it doesn’t matter to him because he has made his daughter happy. She comes running and throws herself into Papa’s arms.. and says... 'Papa Papa you have won! I am so happy’ being unaware of the fact that her dad has gone through so much pain just to see a smile on her face.

This is not an international match where people fight for the expectation of millions of fans. Still this man fought to keep up his promise as if his daughter’s desire is no second to the anticipation of millions of fans.

PS: Thanks for giving me such a wonderful moment Papa :) (Yeah that little girl is me and the man is my dearest most best sweet fantastic Dad!).

Still Green in My mind Screen

Today (Saturday, 7the Feb) is a wonderful day because I got an opportunity to visit the All England Tennis Club Wimbledon. Though I am not a tennis fan it was a thrilling experience to visit the place which has laid the platform for great beginnings, which has witnessed the ecstasy of victory and pain of defeat, which has seen the dawn and dusk of great careers, which has got a great history. So felt like posting this article, which means a lot to me. Soon I am going to write about Wimbledon trip which made my day.

I was flipping through the TV channels, suddenly something caught my attention. It was 2003 Wimbledon final match, last few minutes of the game, the moment which brought tennis fans all over the world to the edge of the chair. Suddenly the man drops to his knees, his forehead touching the tennis racket held in his right hand! Then he arises and walks away from the court, sits in the courtside chair, put his hands to his face and then he starts to sob. He lifts the trophy awarded to him, he kisses the token of his accomplishment while trying to fight the welling tears, tears of joy, tears of attainment, tears of living up to the expectation of his Country, tears of relief! Uncontrollable emotions he sobs and sobs...To my surprise tears swelled in my eyes albeit I am unaware of the game and don't know this man who is living the greatest moment of his life! The only thing which made sense was - 'The Game was won, hinting and hoping Great things!' and the winner is 'Roger Federer'. The passion, the dedication, the perfection, the triumph which I saw on the TV screen had kept me in thrall for couple of minutes. The wonderful moment is still green in my heart! Whenever I hear the word ‘Wimbledon’, my mind replays the scene.

Kiss and Kick!!

Hmmm....What to Say.....after reading something..which is the fact of life!

I read something from my inspirer's blog, in which she has mentioned "When you come in the world everybody wants to kiss you :) but, before you go out everybody wants to kick you!"
One sentence - if you just read it..it's just one sentence. Read it, re-read it, think about it, analyse it...Ohh! Gosh! The fact of life, reality of the world, the very human nature, withering relationships, diminishing innocence and what not..everything is captured in one sentence!

When you come to this world, you bring happiness to the family,hopes to your parents, promises to the lives you are associated/going to be associated with. Also at that time you are someone who doesn't have any complains and demands, who doesn't have selfishness, who is so pure and innocent, who is uncompetitive,  who is deaf and dumb to every lie uttered, who is blind to every wrongdoing,you believe everything, you astonish for everything, you are content and happy. you just smile or cry for everything. you are serene and so complete! Isn't it sweet? Everybody loves you and wants to kiss you!!!

As you grow up, when you starts understanding the things around, serenity vanishes slowly as the reality of the world usurps. The innocence which was so evident, is now at the verge of extinct!!! Now you have lots of demands! You are selfish because you have thirst. You cannot be pure when you are in the filth. You compete because you want to win. You are no more insensitive to the things around you, so you complain! You cannot be excited for petty things when you have better things to do. You cannot be content amidst the tempt! You cannot smile when you had a blue day. Isn't it true? Then how can you expect everyone to love you? Reality is at one or the other time everyone would have wanted to kick you!!

QC1215

What a weird title isn't it? It's okay I don't mind! :p.

Warning:  Only if you are a crap talker, or you are as cool as cucumber, or you don't have any work, go ahead and read it! Because I am not ready to take anybody's frustration, am already tired after a long terrific battle!.

First let me explain, what is this QC1215 -  In RPA we use Quality Centre to track the defects, and 1215 is the defect number which was raised against my code. So it is QC1215. Yay..it's no longer a defect because it got rejected!!! Can you believe it? I can't ..hope this is not a dream! (I know the person who had to reject this defect is mad at me!)Don't ask me 'Kya pagal hogayi ho kya? ek defect ko itna bada issue kyon bana rahi ho? and all'. I know this is silly! But literature is unbiased, it takes both silly and sensible stuffs. I just want to give a literary touch to the incident and personify certain things in my life!

This defect is the child of incorrect corroboration and wrong interpretation! One fine day this defect which made me almost a warrior (one who is contending for the credibility of his code...lol) came to the family of R11.1b (this is the release name;p). How can I stand this new thing(or member whatever you want to call) which is jeopardising the believability of the code. I had to fight with one of the family members who welcomed this defect to the family! Because I felt that this defect (thing) is not trustworthy, I was afraid that everyone in the family may go against the SP5 Extract code which is innocent in this matter. It has already undergone so much pain, pain of fighting all the odds, handling all the issues alone. So I wanted to fight for it, no matter what it takes, I just wanted to prove to the world that QC1215's decision is not aright. He(1215) doesn't have the right to speak ill of SP5 Extract code. I fought and fought,agrued and debated with my friend, finally today he agreed to boot out his friend 1215 from our R11.1b family( I mean he rejected the defect..lol). I know my friend is innocent, he was just doing his duty and was tricked by 1215! My intension was not to hurt him by separating him from his friend, I just wanted to safeguard the credibility of SP5 Extract code, one who had almost reached his destination but still agreed to come back to square one, to take care of missed things!!!

PS: This is dedicated to the fighter(Mr. V), who fought sincerely till the end. I like the attitude of fighting till the end with never ending hope and accepting the defeat in a graceful manner. Because attitude matters, not the victory or defeat! Keep up the spirit friend :).

Another Day Has Gone?!

It's just that I am fending myself off  from blogging for last one week to go to bed early! (usually my blogging activity starts after 12am :p). After slogging at office it's hard to be awake till 2am to produce some creative work, though it makes you feel better.
Today was another frustrated,discomfited,feverish day! Don't know sometimes though you have friends around, you feel shipwrecked! Is it because of hectic work? Homesickness?uncertainity about the future?
Every day why I have to return home with loads of pending work, worries, sense of incompleteness? Why don't I feel fresh and energetic when I get up in the morning? Where is the enthu? - avidity to make things better, fight with the odds, dedication to accomplish the task.
Why today I am feeling like going home and throw myself in papa's arms to seek comfort? Why am I yearning to keep my head on mom's lap and cry my heart out? Ohh looks like deluge of work & tiredness have gotten on me! Now..I can remember Michael Jackson's - You are not alone song..which I am going to adapt to my situation!

Another Day has gone
 I am still the Same
How could this be..
Enthu is not here with me..

I was not of this type
Someone tell me why..
should I loose the hope
To make myself droop..

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did trust slip away
Something whipsers in my
    ear and says..

That you are not alone..
For I am here with you
Though you can't see me
  I am within you..

It's just a negative thought
everything will be alright
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear..

Trust me I am with you
A voice whispers in me
and says.. that
You Are not Alone