ಆಸೆ

 ಓ ಗಡಿಯಾರದ ಮುಳ್ಳುಗಳೇ....

                ನಿಮ್ಮಂತೆ ನಾನಾಗಬೇಕೆಂಬ ಆಸೆ!

                 ಖಿನ್ನತೆಯ ಜಾಡಲ್ಲಿ, ಆಲಸ್ಯದ ಗೂಡಲ್ಲಿ 

                 ಗುಬ್ಬಿಮರಿಯಾಗಿರುವ ನನಗೆ 

                 ಕ್ಷಣಕಿರುವ ಮಾನ್ಯತೆಯ, ಕಾಯಕದ ಔನ್ನತ್ಯವ 

                 ನಿದರ್ಶಿಸಿರುವೆ ನೀನು....

ಓ ಶ್ವೇತ ಹಂಸಗಳೇ....

                ನಿಮ್ಮಂತೆ ನಾನಾಗಬೇಕೆಂಬ ಆಸೆ!

                ನಿರ್ಲಿಪ್ತ ನೀರಲ್ಲಿ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಚಲನೆ,

                ನೋಡುಗನಿಗೆ ಸಖ್ಯ, ಕಣ್ಣಿಗದು ಆಹ್ಲಾದ 

                ಅದರಡಿಯ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಸತತ ಪರಿಶ್ರಮ 

                ಯಾರಿಗದು ವೇದ್ಯ? ನನಗದುವೆ ಪ್ರಚೋದನೆ....

ಓ ಧುಮ್ಮಿಕ್ಕೋ ಜಲಧಾರೆ......

                 ನಿಮ್ಮಂತೆ ನಾನಾಗಬೇಕೆಂಬ ಆಸೆ!

                 ತನ್ನದೆಂಬ ನಿರ್ದಿಷ್ಟ ಪರಿಧಿಯ ತೊರೆದು 

                 ತನ್ನಿಕ್ಕೆಲವ  ಹಸಿರಾಗಿಸಿ, ಜುಳ ಜುಳನೇ ಹರಿಯೋ ಜಲರಾಶಿ 

                 ಎಲ್ಲ ಎಲ್ಲೆಗಳನು ಮೀರಿ ತನ್ನ ತನವ ಛಾಪಿಸುತ 

                 ವ್ಯಕ್ತಿಗತವಾಗಿ ಬೆಳೆಯಬೇಕೆಂಬಾಸೆಗೆ, ನೀನಾಗಿರುವೆ ನೀರು....

              

  

 ಟಿವಿ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಆ ಕ್ಷಣ 

ಕ್ಷಣ ಕ್ಷಣವೂ ಕಾಯುತಿಹೆ ನಾನು  

ರಂಗಿನ ಪರದೆಯ ಕುಡಿನೋಟಕ್ಕಾಗಿ 

ಸಿಡಿಲಿನಾರ್ಭಟಕೆ, ಮಳೆಯಬ್ಬರಕೆ 

ಕುಸಿದಿರೆ ಕೇಬಲ್ ತಂತಿಯ 

ಆಧಾರ ಕಂಬಗಳು, ಮೊರೆಹೋಗಿದೆ

ಟಿವಿಯು ನಿರ್ಲಿಪ್ತತೆಯ ನೆಲೆಯಾ!

ಹಾಯಾಗಿ ಕುರ್ಚಿಯಲಿ ಮೈಚಲ್ಲಿ 

ಕರಿದಿಟ್ಟ ಕುರುಕುರುಗಳ ಮೇಯುತಲಿ 

ರಿಮೋಟ್ ಕಂಟ್ರೋಲಿನ ಗುಂಡಿಗಳ ಒತ್ತುತಲಿ 

ಚಾನಲಗಳ ಬದಬದಲಾಯಿಸುತ 

ಒಂದೇ ಬಾರಿಗೆ ನೋಡುವ ನಾಲ್ಕು ಸಿನೆಮಾಗಳ 

ಆ ಮಜ(ವನ್ನು) ಕನಸಾಗಿಸಿದೆ ಮಳೆಗಾಲವೆಂಬ ಈ ಸಜ!

Best send off I ever had!

                                                                                                                                  
It was raining. I was standing beside the Rail-Air(Reading to Heathrow) with my 30+10kg baggage, waiting for a friend. Bus was about to start in 10 mins. It would take her at least 15 mins to walk from home to the station. I didn't want  to trouble her, called her up to ask her not to start from her home. But She had already started. I waited for 5 more minutes. Driver started to keep the luggages in dickey. I didn't handover mine as I had decided to wait for my friend. I just tried to call her up  to tell her not to hurry as I have decided to take the next bus, she didn't answer the call. I was planning to shift my luggage to make sure  that it is protected from the rain. By then, she called me up! I turned back and answered the call, I could see G3 coming running and could hear  her panting voice "Keep your luggage in the bus". I ran to her and we both hugged. The driver smiled and kept my luggage in the bus.

I always wanted to have someone to share my joy of travelling back to India. But because of the reason
that, most of the times, I would be the last one to travel back home among my friends, couldn't have anyone waving at me while I board the Rail-Air. But this was one of the most wonderful and happiest moments of my life. G3 had given me the best send off I ever had and always wanted to have!!!

Bus started, She was smiling as always...I waved at her sitting inside the bus with brimming eyes and my heart filled with joy!
  
PS: I always wonder how some people can be so wonderful, just their presence would be enough to trigger the positive energy. G3 is such kind of a  person and I am thankful to have her in my life.

Battle with laziness

After a long time, felt like writing something and it turned out to be a crap :(. It's okay, I will get  better!
I can't stop myself from posting this because I wrote it in the boring hours of office :D
Please go ahead only if you are in best of your moods :P

Of late, combating with laziness has become norm of my life! They say morning sun rays rejuvenate your mind and body.But for me it rouses each and every bit of slothfulness in me. I snug in my bed and keep snoozing the alarm. Every second seems to be priceless once I snooze my alarm. Snooze snooze snooze till the peak point is reached! until then I turn deaf ear to all the voices (inside and outside).

Morning in the life of 'S':

Eyes are closed and and 'S' is half asleep witnessing the conversation and waiting to take the side of the winner
(voice - something in 'S' which always wants to see 'S' as active as mercury)
(laziness - no explanation required :P)

Voice : "Good morning, time to wake up"
laziness : "SLEEP, its too early..even the alarm is sleeping"
Voice : "Don't listen to lazy, he is a looser and you will end up being one"
laziness : "Don't be a workaholic, take rest and recharge your batteries"
voice : "Get up else you will run short of time and miss the bus"
laziness : "If you know how to manage time, you will not miss the bus"

Alarm rings.. tududu...du.. tududu.. du...

voice : "Did you hear that? Now you can get up"
laziness : "Close your ears with the blanket and go back to sleep!!! Ohh no,
you can't, snooze it"
voice : "Who is going to make the breakfast? who will cook if you sleep
like this??"
laziness : "Don't worry everything can be done in one hour, its just 7:00am"

Alarm :tududu ...du...tududu...du... (I snooze it again)

laziness : "Good"!!!
Voice : "Ohh God,can't help.. save this lazy girl"
laziness : (Winning smile)
voice : "You swore yesterday that you will go for a morning walk"
laziness : " Why do you need it? you are not that fat"

Alarm :tududu ...du...tududu....du... (7:15am)

Voice : "after a long pause.. atleast you can exercise for 15 mins"
laziness : "Don't exercise you will be tired...."
Voice : "I can't fight with laziness and procrastination at once"
laziness : "Thanks Procrastination..(with winning smile) "

Alarm :tududu ...du...tududu....du... (7:30am)

Finally lazy lady wakes up and repents for 2 minutes then as usual she would swear again -
tomorrow onwards I get up at 6am!!!! Don't know when that tomorrow comes..

Kavana

This is my first poem which was published in my college magzine. I was extremely delighted to see my name
with the two preceeding words "Written By".. silly me ;) In fact, I wanted this poem to be the first one in my blog as well but unfortunately that couldn't happen. This post cannot wait anymore..

                              ಕಲ್ಪನೆಯ ಕಡಲಲ್ಲಿ ಭಾವಗಳ ಅಲೆಮೂಡಿ

                            ಅಲೆಗಳಾ ಲಯವೆಲ್ಲ ಸ್ಫೂರ್ತಿಯಾ ಸೆಲೆಯಾಗಿ

                              ಮೌನವದು ದನಿಯಾಗಿ, ಸಾಹಿತ್ಯ ಕೊರಳಾಗಿ

                              ಮೈದಳೆಯೊ  ಮಥನ, ಅದುವಲ್ಲವೆ 'ಕವನ'.

                                 ಸಂಗೀತ ಸುಧೆಯ ಸಂಪದವು ನೀನಾಗಿ,

                             ಕವಿಮನದ ಮೃದುಲತೆಯ ಬಿಂಬಿತವು ನೀನಾಗಿ,

                             ಸಹಜತೆಯ ಭಿನ್ನತೆಯು, ಪದಪುಂಜ ಮಂಜರಿಯು

                                 ಸ್ಫುರಣಕ್ಕೆ ಸ್ಪಂದನವು, ನೀನಲ್ಲವೆ 'ಕವನ'.

                                   ಕವಿತ್ವದ ಸತ್ವವು, ನವ್ಯತೆಯ ನಿನದವು,

                                    ನಿರ್ಲಿಪ್ತ ನೀರವದ ನೈದಿಲೆಯು ನೀನು,

                               ಸ್ಫುಟ ಪುಟಕೆ ಶ್ರಂಗಾರ, ಇಂಪದುವೆ ಮಂದಾರ,

                                   ಕಂಪನದ ಸಂಭವವು ಪದವಲ್ಲವೆ 'ಕವನ'.

Closing Time

After a long time, opened my old diary in which I used to scribble my thoughts. As I was flipping through the pages, something interesting caught my eyes. It was something I had written in one of my friends autograph book. Looks like I was really emotional that day!!! I am not sure what exactly I wanted to write there!! I guess that is the reason I have mentioned at the corner that 'Nebulous thoughts out of murky mind' :p

Well, I haven't changed much, so felt like publishing it here... :)

Here it goes....

Stroke of senti..embellished with flashbacks and lingering new hopes... Being at the verge of drowning past and rising future, what should I pen down to enrich the pot-pourri of memories!!!

Life wretches the days
Days of savouring silly stuffs

                 Joy of soaring our hopes sky high
                and facing the moments of disappointments...

Disappearing days of being slipshod
Lurking responsibilities with the days ahead

                 Lingering emotions,welling up tears
         My heart shrieking, Never bid adieu to friendship O my dear...

Life may take away all these things
But can never elude the feelings

                 Never ever it can pause us from
                 Cherishing the moments that etched in our heart...

How could this happen to me?!!

Sometimes things are out of your control, your intuition says do not do this, still you end up doing that! Here is an incident where negligence was at its height and cocksureness was at its best!

Today (Friday 05th March 2010) I thought of going to office earlier than my usual time. I was not sure about the company shuttle numbers which run during this time (7am to 7:30am). I called up transport desk and found out that B6 LV 46 is the bus number and it stops near Koramangala Maharaja Hotel at 7:18am. I reached MH at 7am. Please do not ask why so early!? Knowingly ya unknowingly reaching the bus stop early helps me to be in my comfort zone. In fact this is applicable to my life. Just to make that one ‘nth moment’ rest in peace, I keep myself restless for the other 1st,2nd,3rd......(n-1)th moments!!! That is the norm of Miss S’s life! Can’t help!

I reached the bus stop and wondered which side of the signal I am supposed to stand and wait, searched for the necks with Accenture Ids hanging around, no luck!! Then my super active brain which was kind of blank at that moment (because of lack of sleep on the previous night) decided to go to other stop (which is Sony World signal) with a hope that one or the other Accenture bus will stop there. I reached Sony world signal and met another Accenture Employee there. Both of us shared Hi, Hello, I am blah blah, I am from blah blah and all. Amidst our chit chat we missed 2 shuttles. Fine! I called up the transport desk again, and found out that, there are 2 more buses which will pass via sony world signal. As soon as I hung up the phone, noticed that one bus passed via other side of the signal. Ohh nooo....we started waiting for the last one...(I didn’t pay attention when the transport guy told the last bus number..I hated myself for this at a later point of time when I paid Rs.300 to the auto driver!). One more bus B6 MV 20B came from nowhere and stopped there, myself and my new friend ran with ecstasy and got into the bus which was about to move. Phew... we got the bus finally. Story doesn’t end here... You have to bear with me for some more time!! ;)


Hmm...Now the bus is taking different route than the usual one. I am all excited to see different part of Bangalore through the window. My friend miss A asked me, ‘are you sure we are in the correct bus ? I have a feeling something is wrong because they have not asked us to sign the trip sheet’. ‘B6 is written on the bus na.. don’t worry we will reach Bang6 (Accenture office in white field is called Bang6)’ I said confidently, busy looking outside the window. Finally we reached a place where we could see only Wipro offices and one or two Wipro employees in the bus got down. She said.’ Arre how come Wipro employees in our bus! even I wondered! Suddenly the bus stopped and one after the other with Wipro tags started getting down. Then we realized, Ohh God we are in the wrong bus and at the wrong place!!.

Okay...we said ‘let bygones be bygones’ (any better word to console yourself at such a situation?) and asked the auto driver which place is this? He said this is Electronic City..Gosh this is seriously different part of the world!!! (When you are supposed to go to White Field in the peak hours of the day in Bangalore). We decided to take an auto to go to other part of the world and started our journey. She was kind enough to lend me her hair clip after seeing my battle with the wind to keep my hair in place (or probably the state of my hair and sleepless shocked face reminded her of some hairy moments). Auto journey was fun as always: P. But it didn’t last long because auto stopped somewhere in the middle and we had to wait for next means of transport under the scorching sun. Waiting has to end at some point of time, it happened in our case also... finally got another auto which can compete with any type of cart and reached Whitefield... Phew!!

I am not a slipshod person, I take care of small things, I will be extra careful when it comes to trying new things.... still how could this happen to me?? Over Cautiousness entails carelessness??